Love, Undisguised

My first song

I've been asked about this song so many times... the first one I ever wrote.

When I attended my first Winterfest Online in 2006, I was amazed at the flow of talent from so many... That year I didn't interact with anybody; I didn't know how, and the little I knew seemed intimidating enough to keep this shy introvert away for a while longer. (What? You don't believe it?)

When WFOL was over, I joined some of the lists and made myself "visible", but I still kept my distance somehow. When I saw the first candle for WFOL 2007, I wanted to be part of it, to feel more on the inside.

I had been having an idea for a song, but the more I worked on it, the more elusive it became, until finally I gave up: It was no use to force the muse to go where she didn't want to go.

And then one night, I kept replaying that scene... I herd that music box in my head... I imagined Vincent and Catherine dancing to it, and wondered what that moment must have been like for them... and the words just came to me out of nowhere! I grabbed my guitar and sat at the computer, and in the next hour or so the song was mostly ready.

However, I want to scream every time I listen to it! I had very little experience recording on the computer, and since there were not many programs that would be user-friendly to my screan reader (that has changed, thanks heavens), I had to stick with Window's sound recorder. What a nightmare! It took more time to record the thing than to compose it! Add to it that it was the middle of the night and everyone was sleeping, so I had to keep my voice to a reasonable volume. As a result, we get an emotionless performance, (not to mention some bits of my english still make me growl).

Anyway, I sent it to the Wintercandlemakers that night as soon as it was finished, but after hitting the Send button I started to pannic! You absolutely can't imagine what their letter of encouragement ment, least of all my shock at Chan's request that it be used for a "special project".

One note about the title: I am terrible with titles! At the last minute I decided to just save the file as "Undisguised", but then Chan started refering to it as "Love, undisguised", which I didn't bother to correct because I loved it.

You can listen to the song here, or better stil, you may want to enjoy dear Tunnelmom doing her magic watching the beautiful video here. The lyrics are included in the page. Enjoy!

Update: Finally! Two years (and much more experience) later, I re-recorded the song! And our amazing TM fixed the video with the new track. I'm excited! Now it doesn't make me cringe so much, and it's not that emotionless.


  1. Vicky, I never knew the story behind the writing of your song. I only knew how much I loved it. Thank you for sharing this.

    Now, more songs please?!?!


  2. Vicky dear! You never said a thing! Fortunately I visit Carole's blog often enough and noticed the new link! Congratulations >:D<

  3. I didn't say anything because I'm still figuring this out... This is still a "testing stage"! And yes, there will be more songs; though at first they'll be the ones you've already herd.

    Thank you both! You know you're two of my dearest people, and if you think it's a good idea, it's all good with me.

  4. Oh, it most definitely is a good idea. A Very Good Idea!

    ~ Carole

  5. I added the mp3 version. I've been meaning to re-record it, maybe soon.